An Advent of Sense

I thought that it was him. The sweet syrup words that I wanted so desperately to coat my ears and fuel my heart. Just a morsel of verse to satiate the pangs and bites of famine. And when I ingested those honey phrases they filled my hopelessly horribly romantic being to the brim. But that was not near as filling as the cherry hue that made my face full when I realized that those confection affections were not of him, but of another. A sickly sweet ploy To make me love the boy. Instead, I hunger for his empty words. I thought that it was him. (June 3, 2012)

YOU. you are always watching, never wanting never speaking, always taunting and your presence, so completely daunting that I am at a loss for words. HA.  That's not true, cuz here I go rambling I have constitution, and feelings, yet I'm STILL preambling your stare is so destructive and shambling... Why can't I look away? If I were to choose, you would never be leaving but you frighten me so much that it's almost deceiving that I WANT  you so much, so I CAN'T stop believing that your complexity feeds my soul. (June 2, 2012)

Is it alright to not always know? The wondering hurts so badly That sometimes my body ripples And clenches with aches Trying to fight off the harrowing fear that circumstances may have changed. Absence makes the heart grow fonder Sure, but Distance makes the mind ponder. What if I have evolved so completely That my heart no longer burns? No, it can't be true That I am no longer wanted, Or want, or need, or feel, or love Him Who makes my world spin so quickly. (July 12, 2012)

Sweet music, from wells of my being Tenderness of my fingertips And hollows of my throat Tell out my humbled soul. Enable me, Master of mine, To emit only light and Rivers, Oceans, Streams, and Waves of sound. (June 20, 2012)

More oft than naught we are blind to the music of our eyes. When graced with sweetest song, we do not hear. Now, I know my melody preferred in thy heart lies. Lo, you're gone and my new attuned eyes sing tears. (June 20, 2012)

You are a first... for everything it seems. I look at you and finally I see. I touch you But only now do I feel. I thought I had A knack for listening Now I know You speak and I hear. And if I catch that fragrance of you I'm aware that I never smelled a man before. Oh My God. When I taste you... My heart is full But I'm hungry for more. I must have been dead For I feel my senses come alive when I'm near to you... And when with you... I've never wanted  needed anyone more. (April 16, 2012)

What is this Feeling I can't even Speak For lack of words... Mouth waters Toes curl Back arches Lips part I ache for him Because I want him. (April 16, 2012)

Stay true, love. Stay the course of my heart. You're not always given what you feel you need. Promises, promises... Someday you will receive it. And when I try your nerves and you want to see less of me (though secretly more!), Remember the feelings I evoked in you. the laughter the happiness the love Someday you will realize Simply what you need All other needs simply secondary. My love Will be the only thing you need. Stay, Promise, Remember, Realize My Love. (January 5, 2011)