Untitled Longing

Why doesn't he see?
Why doesn't he care?
Why doesn't he notice that I'm always there?
All the memories it seems
That I'm trying to push behind the scenes.
I wonder if it ever crossed his mind
That the girl he'd been trying to find
Was the one with laughter in her eyes.
Couldn't tell if he was friend-flirting
Now I know from the heart hurting.
And I will never be able to cry
Because with tears in my eyes
I won't be able to see his
Blue as the skies.
And though....he still doesn't know. : (

(November 4, 2008)

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